Thursday, October 13, 2016

Mystic Messenger: ZEN

Everyone seems to have gotten the Mystic Messenger fever… yours truly included! I’ve completed nearly 100% of all chats in my first run, so you can guess how much sleep I’ve lost in 11 days!

Honestly speaking, I didn’t like Zen in the first few days of the game. He’s such a narcissist! And I happen to know someone like him and I really, really hate him!!! But then, I somehow ended up with this character, and he began to to open up more and more. There’s a deeper reason for his narcissism, and he turned out to be quite sincere and adorable!

But what hit me the most was a phone call… somewhere on the 6th day I think. He asked if anything unfair had ever happened to me, and one of the options was about not getting the job I want. He proceeded to take my side, saying the company didn’t know my worth. And then he shared his own struggle…
When life got so hard, I just told myself I was acting. 
All this struggle is only practice. It’s just like practicing in a run down studio before a big show. I comforted myself like that, and it worked. 
Try thinking that when things get hard for you. Right now, you’re just back stage. Soon, the curtains will open just for you. 
I literally ended up sitting there, crying at a pre-recorded message of a fictional character in love with the heroine of a game. I know that message is not for me specifically, but after struggling for an entire year, it was the perfect set of words at the perfect time. All the pressure, all the hurt, all the sadness; everything was acknowledged by a fictional character!

And just like that, I decided to start again. Nothing will happen if I just sit here, I will make my own way now… I will no longer be afraid.

I will work hard and start again. Yes, Zen, you're right. Back then, I was just practicing. Right now, I'm back stage, and soon, the curtains will rise just for me.

Thank you... I will wait patiently for that day.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

The Art of Pom

I've been thinking about drawing this manga since last year. Although ALAS seems to have been placed on indefinite hiatus, my characters in Celestia are very near and dear to my heart. And when I saw YumYum's character, PomPom, this scenario pretty much popped up in my head!

I really shouldn't be drawing manga when I have more important things to do, but I'm glad this is done and over with. Now I can move on~

Oh, and I don't think I'll be using Google Photos thanks to that number they did in my other blog. In fact, I think I'll just embed photos onto my blog for a while... until they fix that weird error at least. Or maybe move back to Photobucket, I really don't know...

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Heroine from Amnesia

主人公 by kurohiko on pixiv

Because Google has been eating my photos lately, I’ll just embed this artwork for now.

I drew the heroine from Amnesia as part of Riikochan’s same pose meme! Not everyone is done with their works yet, but I wanted to finish mine as soon as possible so I can focus on other things!

I’ve been feeling really out of it lately… I think I need to run around more and hatch some pokemon eggs!

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

King Arthur and Jeanne d'Arc

I don’t know why I drew these two together… They’re not even from the same Fate series!

I decided to finish this up so I can concentrate on drawing manga again. I’m feeling pretty lost at the moment, so my productivity levels have been MIA for the past 3 months. I think I feel a little better now? I’m not 100% yet, but I’m getting there.

I used photos of clouds and concrete flooring for the background. Lately, I’ve been taking a lot of photos different textures. It’s fun to use your own photos for your artwork~

I’ve also restarted my pixiv account! I’ll be posting mostly fan art there from now on, since original characters don’t really get much attention anyway.

I should be sleeping. Hngh...

Saturday, July 9, 2016


Now that the contest is over, I guess we can write about this now.

Hello★Hello Silent Manga by RAYKOSEN and KUROHIKO

Hello★Hello really pushed me to my limits, since I had to attend to some personal matter while I was working on this collaboration. It also taught me how much sleep I was willing to sacrifice just to meet a deadline… it’s been a while since I stayed up 36 hours straight!

In the end, we were only part of the Award Candidates list. I feel very sad and dejected, but at the same time, I also know that I can do even better. Raykosen was really a voice of encouragement during the final hours of this contest, and I’m grateful he entrusted this story to me.

I don’t know if I want to go through this again, but never say never! Overall, it’s still not bad for a first try! Please read this in SMAC and let us know what you think!